Oh, hello there.
Do you remember when Xanga was around? I think it started in 1999 and was my first memory of "blogging". I didn’t have a Xanga because I’ve never been much of a writer, but I did start a blog in 2004 - because by that time it involved more design, branding and photo sharing. Sharing images and designing was MUCH more fun than just writing.
Do you want to know what I called my blog? It was called Sugarcubicle. I worked in a cube and I was excited about my first job in architecture. Don’t ask - I still don’t know what I was thinking. I designed a logo and I think I posted once, maybe twice, before I felt embarrassed / too exposed / not good enough and I took it down.
Since 2004 I can count at least three more times that I’ve started blogs and subsequently took them down within months of publishing them. Each time it was because I felt like someone would judge me for my opinion or that someone at work would find it. And well, that would be embarrassing, wouldn’t it?
Perhaps what they say about growing older is true - that you are more confident in who you are or just less apologetic. In any case, I’m going to try this again. Hopefully I will stick with it, because I don’t want to be left wondering “What if?” another 12 years from now.
So in the words of Brené Brown (because she’s awesome):
“Courage starts with showing up and letting ourselves be seen.”